Bad News but same time feel releassseeeee

I've been waiting this result since 6 months ago..6 months ok..Sejak bulan 3 lagi..And today with my own effort pergi ke pendaftar untuk kali yg ke berapa ntah aku x igt, then the result appear in front of me.. Itu nasib aku pergi hari ni..Klu x bila la agaknya pendaftar nak kasi hitam putih kat aku..So disappointed with the system..

So, today, i got the black and white.. I failed to become a lecturer. My application is not succeeded. It's ok..Aku redha..It's not my rezeki yet. Lg pun i personally believe, ada hikmah disebaliknya. I dont know how to describe my feeling. It's a kind of sad feeling but same time i feel very very very lega..Why lega? Because i know which way i need to focus now. With a lot of crisis i've gone tru, a lot of burden i have to carry and many more trouble which i didn't expected happen on me (i considered it as experience)... then today, after bersabar selama 6 bulan, aku lega..eventho the result adalah failed. People around me sure tahu mcm mana aku berdepan saat-saat menguji keimanan ni..


Kalau lah result ni aku tau awal2 kan senang. Xde lah aku mcm org mati akal selama 6 bulan ni. Tp, aku ni terima ni sbg ujian dr Nya..X kan hidup nak ceria jer kan..Sekali sekala kena tamparan baru blh tahu tahap ketabahan kita kan...Tabahkan hati ku Ya Allah..

So skrg, cari tempat phd.. Then deep inside me seakan berkata, there might be more trouble i need to face throughout the process. One of them could be bila berdepan dgn upper level people..(can u catch the word my friendsss??)


Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, tabahkan lah hatiku menempuhi dugaan Mu Ya Allah..Permudahkan segala urusan ku Ya Allah.. Berikanlah aku kejayaan dalam bidang yang telah aku ceburi ini Ya Allah..Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin...