She's a friend of mine. I mean one of my best friends. Friend which i considered as "Kawan Dunia Akhirat".. Yea I know, I do have a lot of friends. But not all friends can teach u what friendship is. Kan? Pendek kata kawan time susah dan senang. Kawan yg boleh mendengar apa masalah kita. Kawan yg boleh menangis bersama. Kawan yg bukan cari kita time kita senang je. Bukan jugak yg jenis tikam belakang etc2. Syukur Ya Allah, sepanjang 28 thn hidup ni, Allah gives me a few friends that I mention above. Alhamdulillah...
Berbalik kepada cerita asal. I called her Cik Mah as her name is Fatimah Asma binti Mohd Izhar. We have been friend since sekolah menengah lagi. Actually, I kenal dia since sekolah rendah lg, but that time, she was my enemy. Selalu buli aku ngan kwn dia yg sorang lg. Xper lah 2 citer lama. Citer zaman hingus meleleh. Cik Mah pun mesti dah igt2 lupa kisah ni. Nevermind. This entry is not about the past..but about today and future.
Cik Mah ni boleh aku anggap temanku dikala sunyi. Di kala boring. Di kala x tahu apa nak buat. Di kala aku bosan x bertepi. Almaklumlah boyfriend xde. Dia mmg boleh di harap dalam bab2 menghilangkan mood2 boring i.
But within 2 weeks from now, she is getting married. I know I should be happy for her upcoming wedding. Yes, I am. Truly happy. However, it cannot be denied that other part of mine still feel sad.. The word "sad" is not the best word to describe here i think. Pls give me other words to describe my feeling now. I know you u can catch what im trying to say. I just feel that, I lost someone. Someone that can fill up my emptiness.
I know2...This is not good for me. This is the our flow of life. X kan sampai sudah nak membujang kan. Me myself, one day is going to change my single status too. But again..I just trying to express my feeling here. I think nothing wrong with that. Actually, this is my third time this feeling appeared whenever my very close friend is going to get married. Dua yg sebelum ni siap nangis time wedding. Dan rasa2 nya, this gonna be the third tears wedding. To me, sapa2 yg dapat merasai the feeling of friendship shj yg faham apa yang i membebal kat sini. Nevermind. I dont know why. Maybe just because I have to accept things are not going to be the same anymore. Yer la kan..klu dulu suka hati je nak keluar jalan2, mkn2, ronda2 sampai lewat mlm pun. Tp bila dah kawen, xkan terus mcm 2 kan. That why i rasa mcm feeling lost.
Sesungguhnya even i kawen lewat, i rasa happy sgt2 kerana berkawan dgn dua orang ni. I puas dgn hidup bujang i. Yer, yang disebelah kiri Cik Mah 2 another close friend of mine. Cekgu Rosma. Kami tiga serangkai sebenarnya. Tp lps ni xjd 3 dah. Dah jd 2. Huhu..xpe..Friendship never end. Cuma keadaan je berbeza. Like i said, this is flow of life. We have to accept it. Wpun sayang sebenarnya nak tinggal zaman bujang. Rasa2nya, klu lps ni Cekgu Rosma meninggalkan zaman bujangnya jugak, so it's my turn to change my status too.. Rembat je mana yg ada..hehe..
Buat kawanku Cik Mah, aku ucapkan selamat bakal pengantin baru. Moga kekal ke akhir hayat. Ceria dan happy sokmo. Moga perkahwinan ini tidak sekali2 melenyapkan persahabatan kita. Sob sob! Esok kita bertiga akan bergembira bersama maybe untuk kali terakhir b4 naik pelamin. Yer, Bachelor Party esok! Yeayyy....sob sob..
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